Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Today,16Jun2009
marks down a very important day in my personal calendar!!
I just feel extremely exhausted after all..
Sometimes things just dun follow the we want..
The result came out to be so complicated,so difficult and so hard to digest..
Why is it so??
Why cant things just follow the way we decided and the way we plan??
Why cant it just goes tru smoothly without any boundaries??
Whateva I plan,I decide,I arrange,none of them seems to be a successfull 1..
In fact .. ALL failed !!
I just feel like throwing evrything aside,go somewhere which doesn't belong to me!!
I NEED TIME!!
Why??
Why does all tis unlucky incidents always happens on me?
Why is it me??
Why choose steffi??
why do I nid 2 suffer all tis ??
Why cant things just follow as I plan??
I hate when some1 decline my sincere invite!!
I hate when pple say NO to me immediately b4 considering!!
I hate when you just stop by and sy 'Hello' den followed by 'Bye'
I hate when u treat sumbody wif heart bt thy tk it as 'shit' !!
I hate when sum1 is so free and yet so lazy to even send a regard msg!
I hate when sum1 is so busy wif others and yet no spare time for me!
I hate when sum1 seems to be so caring but nex few seconds it just disappear!
I just HATE it alot!!
Come back to the main topic of the day!!
It's like 8:45pm now!!
I just feel so insecure!
i just dunno what shud I do next?
Shud I jx take a cold shower and cool down myself??
Shud I just switch of my lappy and sleep??
Shud I just switch off my mobile??
Shud I continue sitting here chattin wif frenx?
Shud I pop in 1 sleeping pill and and have a gud night slp til tmr mornin??
What shud I do now??
I was confused!!
i dunno what shud I do??
Shud I just go back to the usual Steffi,back to my usual life..
Forget bout evrything and leave al the sad n bad memories behind!!
What Shud i do??
No1 is able to answer to my queries??
Who shall I look for??
Who will understand how I feel??
Who can show me the right path to go??
I have a few sleepless night recently!!
I have lots of queries & worries as well !!
I look older 23 !!!
I've been thinking of 'what's gona happen tmr??' !!
I've been wondering 'Am i suppose to this/that??'!!
I've been asking asking myself 'Shud I?','Can I?' !!
Why am I thinking so much??
I just feel like working!!
Working can help me to pass time!
Woring enable to earns 4 my living!
Working helps me to interact wif more pple!!
Working keep me away from thinking nonsence!!
Working allows me to shop in overseas!!
Brisbane is where i came from tis morning!!
It's been a tiring journey!
Is not the matther of passenger,
In fact,it's a overnight flight,when u r sleeping,i'm working up there!
The atmosphere is quite n dark..
Most of my beloved babies is sleeping!
Al my little kiddy is hugging their pillows,hiding under the blankets!
Some of the papa/mama is wtching the new release movies!
Colleagues was sitting n chatting around!!
Struggling to keep ourselves warm,as the cbin is freaking cold,
as the chiller is juzt evrywhere surrounding us
The best thing to do at that point of time is....
Fix a cup of hot chocholate, wrap a hot towel around ur neck and park myself near to the warming cabinet which used to heat up towels n bread!!
That's the warmest part in the plane!!
After a long and sleepless night!
finally i'm home!!
Was busy in the morning!
Travelling in/out of the hse,running up/down like a mad lady!!
Just One word for now.. TIRED!!
Mobile is on since i arrived,bt is so quiet!!
Other den mum's msg, spore welcome msg that's all...
I just wish 2 receive just ONE text from you!
Till now!!
Finally,I received!! But that not i wana listen from u!!
Mayb the first half but not the last part!!
I fill so scared,so lonely!!
I dunno how!! What should i do!!
What shall I be doin now??
I just wana keep myself in the room!!
No noice!
Jz easy listening music!!
Forget bout wt's happenin tomorrow!!
I just hope......!!
To have a shoulder to ly on whn i'm tired!!
To have a brighter day ahead!!
A better tommorow!!
An angel to guide me what to do nex!
A leader to lead me the right path!!
Sumone to share al my sorrows n worries!
AND there's you in me!!
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